Wonderings

Today I had my bi-weekly meeting with Nicholas' behavioral therapist. This happened AFTER I went to work, picked up Nicholas' physical and dropped it off at school. Met with his new Kindergarten teacher to discuss some concerns. Then went to church and registered him for Catechism and volunteered to teach on Thursday afternoons.

What happened at this meeting to warrant a blog....well exactly this....

Today we were discussing Nicholas' aversion to water....simply put...he HATES water. Goes balistic when he goes near it...or you mention going swimming to him. So we were sitting there watching him play with some toys and were discussing this when she brought up swimming lessons again.

So she says today, have you thought more about the swimming lessons...and I told her I had...but I just couldn't figure out how to fit that into our schedule at this point and time.

Then I explained everything to her....

Nicholas starts Kindergarten, he starts catechism, and he has therapy 2 X a week (not including his biweekly meeting with her)

I work, am now taking 3 courses at school instead of 2, and have now agreed to also teach catechism.

Her answer to this....."Well you just need to figure it out"

So I looked at her and said..."Ok yes...I will just figure it out...and here is my just figuring it out..it isn't happening in September...I will revisit the issue in January for the next term of swimming lessons...but right now it is too much"

And she responded with "we keep coming up with this issue, you simply just do not do everything you need to be doing for your son, you need to learn how to manage your time better and spend as much time as needed with him to help him with all of his issues."

*As a side note to this...this comment from her and EVERYONE in the medical/educational/therapeutic field who say this to me...because I have heard it more than once just REALLY gets to me...I am not sure what they want/expect from me...I really think they want me to be a stay at home Mom who just spends every waking minute with her child...and honestly...when I am home and on weekends I do spend as much time as possible with Nicholas...and everyone in my family will vouch for that...LOL....but I'm sorry I need to work, I need to go to school...so I am sorry if certain people don't like that...but it's the simple facts of life...and I FEEL I DO, DO AS MUCH AS I HUMANLY CAN FOR NICHOLAS.

So after the meeting I came home and sat down and went over everything...school schedules, work schedules, therapy appointments, catechism schedules inserted some studying time, homework time for Nicholas...they say 0-10 minutes of homework for Kindergarteners but with Nicholas' difficulties I alloted 1/2 hour per night...plus time to cook dinner...etc...and I found a spare hour in there where I could possibly fit in these swimming lessons for him...but in all honesty by doing that...I am REALLY overextending myself and I feel I am just putting too much on Nicholas all at once...

So I am debating....should I overextend myself (which simply put is the job of a Mother) and sign him up for the swimming lessons...or should I stick to what I originally said and wait till January and give both of us some time to adjust to the new schedules....

The decisions of Mommyhood :)